Monday, March 16, 2015

My Testimony



This week was crazy. It is 70 degrees today and I got asked to give a talk on my last Sunday here...can you believe it? One more week!

Wow, I seriously can't believe this will be my last email home. Honestly, it feels great cause I am so SICK of computer screens! But I am still so lucky because I have one more week to dedicate to the Lord. How blessed am I! I decided, this being my last email, it would be well worth it to bear my testimony instead of boring you about my crazy week. I have come to realize that I am not too fond of bearing my testimony because words can't even begin to express what is in my heart. So bear with me.

I love Heavenly Father so much for loving me. I was reading over my journal entry from when I was set apart as a missionary and one of the promises stood out to me as I now come to the close of my mission. He said "my testimony will grow immensely and whenever I am discouraged, turn to Christ. He will wrap His arms around me and comfort me." My mission has been so hard. I realize this is not unique to me. When I was in the MTC, I had this grand idea of the missionary I was going to be. As I started my journey I realized that I would never become that missionary. I wish I could say I was perfectly obedient, I was not. I wish I could say I brought many people to the waters of baptism, I did not. I wish I could say I held many leadership positions, but I did not. I am not who I wanted to be but I am what Heavenly Father wanted me to be. I have an unshakable testimony of my Savior. And I would do this all over again, walk through hell and back just to show Satan what's up. I am not perfect. Thank goodness our ticket to heaven is not determined by our performance as a missionary! Our ticket to heaven is determined by our ability to get back up every time we fall. Man, am I so thankful for every single moment that I fell because every time I fell, I fell one step closer to Christ. I have felt His arms around me in many ways throughout this journey and oh, how much He loves me. I wish I could say more about who He is but I can't even think of anything more beautiful about Him than His ability to love me unconditionally even when I give Him so many reasons not to. Are we not so blessed? Simply that is it, the essence of everything we do. The reason I gave up a year and a half of my life. The reason I get up every time I fall. The reason why we time and time again make the harder but better choice. HE IS THE REASON. He is everything to me and I am so thankful for the time He has invested in me. I love this gospel, I love that there are always second chances and that hope is the beautiful message we share everyday. There are always GOOD THINGS TO COME.

Thank you to everyone that was there for me that got me where I am today. You didn't give up on me and you helped me become something so much more. Mom and Dad--thank you. You mean the world to me. Your example and strength is the only reason I am here. Allison and Justin--I love you. Thank you for loving me even when I wasn't the best example. Don't forget how much I love you! Thank you to everyone else who loved me as well. You are amazing and, of course...


On a lighter note, we had gumbo and I ate squid!

Then I had catfish for the first time and it was really good!

Monday, March 9, 2015

You Can't Pick and Choose

Hey Family!

Well, this week was crazy! I felt like we were so busy and doing so much yet got nothing done. Don't know how that works but it is okay!

So our investigators--I am so close to Quinten and Sister Capshaw and we have been having some amazing lessons with them. They are definitely going to be the people I miss the most when I leave Paris. I love them and there is so much potential for Quinten. They are amazing! We call Sister Capshaw "Mama Capshaw" haha.

Karen is doing well. We had the most calm and not contentious lesson I have ever had with her in my life. We talked about prayer and it was good. I still feel like she is trying to pick and choose what she wants but we will see how it goes. She has a huge issue with authority right now. She doesn't think it's necessary. If you have the Holy Ghost then you don't need authority, you just need the spirit. Which I know sounds simple when I say it to you guys but in lessons with her, it is so hard to make that point because she just idk...the way she is I guess.

Rosa--we might have to have the drop talk. We go over every Monday, Friday, and Saturday and she was asleep both Monday and Friday and just didn't answer the door on Saturday. She needs to decide if this is something she really wants to make a part of her life. We are going to share President Holland's talk "If You Love Me" and see what it is she wants.

WE GOT IN TOUCH WITH DUSTY AND BRIANNA so we are now teaching them again. Yay! Dusty got really sick so she was praying for the first time in a month, because she was mad at God, and guess who knocked on the door? We did! Miracles.

This week was weird. I now only have two weeks left. Crazy!!! I am just trying to enjoy every minute of my life until I come home and then enjoy it even more! Life is so good. I love my Heavenly Father so much.

Love - Sister Lundskog
Reunited with Sister Robertson

Monday, March 2, 2015

Snow, Snow, Snow!

Dear Family,

Well, this week was crazy! We got hit with so much snow! So lets see, Saturday night it started snowing and didn't stop until like 11:00 on Sunday. Church was definitely cancelled this week which was a bummer!

Tracting with Sister Uta'i
The highlight of this week is probably the zone leader training we had. We had to head up to the stake center. The trainings were amazing and it was great to get to see everyone. But, unfortunately, they left time for the soon-to-be-departing missionaries to bear their testimonies. That was really hard cause I feel like that isn't me, but it is! Crazy.

We had a super hard lesson with Karen this week. It was super beneficial but super difficult. We kind of had a heart to heart with her. This week she got sick and so a member and his wife and kids came and gave her a blessing. She had a lot a lot of questions about the priesthood and, pretty much, authority doesn't matter to her. She doesn't understand why we keep trying to prove our authority which was weird because she was super hung up on finding out how Lehi had authority to leave Jerusalem, you know? She then just started bashing on the members and was just so unkind and so I just had to stand up to her. It was cool to see that she realized that she is seeking perfection and not opening her heart to accepting everything. We told her this isn't a pick and choose, it's all or nothing. So then we get a text from her on Sunday. She went to Indiana to visit her daughter (who is a member) and the missionaries came over. They gave her an object lesson and then invited them to go out with them and visit and tract and contact referrals. Karen said she has a LOT  to tell us and it sounds like she has had some breakthroughs so we will see what happens. Brother Randolph told me that before I leave Karen has to commit to baptism because he believes I'm the one who can help her. I don't know about that but I do know we are helping her come closer to God day by day.

We had a chili cook off this week as a branch! That was super fun and really good. Lots of members came, too, so it was good to see branch support! We tried to get gators to come but everyone was busy.

Rosa is doing really well. She has been studying all week to pass her GED tests. She passed three of them this week!!! So that was awesome and she will be able to focus more time on studying the scriptures and coming to church. I was really bummed that church was cancelled this week. We had a member lesson with Rosa, though, and talked about Prophets and it was so cool to see because she wants to go to Salt Lake and see and hear them live. It's cool to see people change and to grow.

We went tracting this week in a little town called Vermillion. It was 16 degrees that day and super windy so we about died haha. We had to take breaks in the car so we could thaw before we went back out.

Saturday was super fun because we got to do a bunch of service. We helped the Capshaws rearrange their whole living room and then we helped Rosa rearrange her house. A lot of manual labor picking up couches and TVs and stuff. I LOVED IT. It felt really good.

Anyway, it is crazy to know that we just finished one week. It flew by! But I am just so grateful for another week to serve my Heavenly Father. I love you all so much! Have a wonderful and warm week :)

Sister Lundskog